Finding Your Truth

I could have easily titled this blog “Finding MY Truth” but that’s not what this written effort is about.  This blog’s focus is to help others in finding their own truth.

In reality, your TRUTH might not be the same as MY truth; but what I’d like others to know is that I compassionately encourage you in your explorations to find your personal truth because I know how arduous that search can be—how rocky the terrain that lies ahead—how tedious the extended journey awaiting you, simply to uncover those deeply-hidden secrets of YOU. 

And I also know how life can change in an instant when the winding, mountainous path that you were so confidently traveling suddenly crumbles beneath your feet—tossing you screaming off the cliff and out into space.

Having faced some of that unexpected “air time” myself, I know how shocking it can be when your life suddenly falls apart, forcing you to see how quickly you either learn to fly, or how well you can bounce once you do hit the canyon floor.  

Also from my own experiences in personal TRUTH finding (as well as surviving LIFE’s challenges), I know how rare it is to find others willing to offer emotional support or encouragement to get you back on your feet again without a ‘profit motive’ involved.  True, we all have to make a living, but there are times when you should compassionately look to help others without first considering what they can offer you in return.   

So up front here: I don’t want your money—in fact I don’t want anything from you other than some deep soul-searching to determine what you really expect from LIFE and what LIFE expects from you in return.

If you can answer those two key questions to your own satisfaction, then that’s plenty reciprocal reward for me.

Remember, MY truth may not be YOUR truth, but I know MY truth better than I know yours, so that is likely what I will write about the most and hope you can see parallels or divergences by which to gauge your own truth. 

Life is an adventure—one we may never truly understand in this plane of existence—but one we have to navigate all the same.  So good luck!  As you journey ever forward, stay alert to avoid sudden pitfalls and just watch where you step in general, because it’s one big ‘cow pasture’ out there.*   

* (I’m from Iowa: If you think dogs leave an unappreciated ‘pile’ behind in walkways, imagine what a bunch of cows might leave behind during your pastoral wandering.)

The Universal Creative Force

(Sometimes a post is so spot-on appropriate, I only have to share it so that others can also absorb the higher energy from it.)

Tao & Zen

 “There is a Universal Creative Force connecting all beings and things, a source of love and wisdom that can be drawn from (and revealed through the creation of works of art).

[Indigenous cultures teach that] ‘spiritual healing’ begins with respect for the Great Spirit—the life and love that can be found in all of nature’s creations. Each element of creation has its own will, its own way, and its own purpose. These ways need to be respected, not exploited, by human beings.

I have learned that all knowledge is available to us. We don’t have to create it; we have only to access it. Simply ask in the right way—not with pride in your accomplishment, but with an open heart. Don’t think about yourself at all, nor about your ability or lack of it. Concentrate, rather, on attuning yourself to Infinite Consciousness and ask for guidance in what you want to do.

We are all surrounded by an ocean of abundance: knowledge, wisdom, ability, opportunities, material plenty. What a pity it is that people close themselves off from that spiritual environment. Keeping their gaze fixed on the ground, they trudge through a life burdened with worries, fears, and self-doubts.

To effect large-scale changes in our lives and in the world, we need to hold large-scale visions in our minds and consciously pour our energy into them.

As the Hindu sages who fashioned the Akashic concept realized, there are aspects of the human mind that are unlimited in space, therefore omnipresent, and that are also boundless in time, therefore eternal and immortal. Omnipresence and eternality are qualities that have always been attributed to the Divine—thus the Hindu aphorism ‘Thou art that,’ which affirms that we share qualities with the Absolute, however named.”

~Ervin Laszlo

“Cosmos -Return to Oneness-” – Ervin Laszlo

Shvetashvatara Upanishad – Advaita Vedānta https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N1xw8LxopiM


Tao & Zen

“To the Taoist mentality, the aimless, empty life does not suggest anything depressing. On the contrary, it suggests the freedom of clouds and mountain streams, wandering nowhere, of flowers in impenetrable canyons, beautiful for no one to see, and of the ocean surf forever washing the sand, no end.”  ~Alan Watts  

—  Photo by Mohamed Nohassi

Perhaps I’ve mentioned before that Alan Watts helped to westernize Eastern philosophies in the 1960’s and 70’s.  Never dull and often controversial, he became a clarion voice for spiritual awakening among eager young-adult seekers.

He’s always worth a listen on YouTube as his post-hummus fan base seems to grow larger by the day which amazes me in one sense. But in another, people now seem more needy of his jocular, tell-it-straight version of how to find yourself and your purpose in life, which for him to sum it up in minimal words would have been: “Shut up. Open your eyes and your mind, and just breathe into life.”

I like his quote above because it soothes my inner restlessness when I feel like I’m not ‘doing enough’ or ‘making a difference for others,’ or whenever I just plain feel purposeless at the moment.

An “…aimless, empty life does not suggest anything depressing. On the contrary, it suggests the freedom of clouds and mountain streams, wandering nowhere, of flowers in impenetrable canyons, beautiful for no one to see, and of the ocean surf forever washing the sand, no end.”   

When you take the ‘ego’ out of this world—the narcissistic ‘ME-ness’ out of life’s equation, you realize that the tree does fall in the forest whether anyone hears it or not, but it matters only to egoic us that we DO hear it.  

In truth the clouds and mountain streams still meander wherever they wish, whether we are there or not to witness it; and wildflowers still bloom in places we may never see, while the rolling surf endlessly slips in and out of the shoreline oblivious to human observation.  They have as much ‘purpose’ in the overall life process as we will ever have, but they don’t question why they are doing what they are—they just do it.

So as Watts might advise: Just BE.  Just breathe.  Just appreciate the moment. You are here.

Isn’t that enough?

Telling Our Stories

I’m using myself as example here, but maybe you also have noticed this: Sometimes at night when trying to shut off my mind, it’s hard to know where one intruding thought ends and another begins. I mean they just seem to explode tangentially in first one direction and then another.

So as I’m lying there trying to relax and clear my mind, I start to wonder if any of those distracting, annoying thoughts stand alone as originators of the ‘can’t shut it off’ problem, or are they all connected at a deeper level so that they all just spew out randomly like pressurized waste because my unconscious mind is trying to clear its cache of collected debris?

Wide awake now, the next question I asked myself was WHY am I telling myself these particular things—not just rehashing the day’s interactions, etc., but also creating a running monolog to accompany them—like who did what and how it affected me, and what I did or didn’t do, or WHAT PART I played in those mock daily dramas—such as, what was my ROLE in what happened at the time—was I the victim of another’s ill intentions or was I the aggressor in a testy interaction, or was I the rescuer/hero of the oppressed underdog—meaning the one who stepped into someone else’s conflict to ‘save the day’ for all involved because I couldn’t keep my nose out of it, or was I a total and absolute mute bystander observing all with no sense of concern whatsoever?  (I might later wish that I were, but I am NEVER a mute bystander.)

In those ‘tell-myself’ stories, it would seem that each possible self-perceived role is revealing HOW I truly think of myself. As Don Juan in Carlos Castaneda’s epic story series would ask Carlos, “Are you a leaf at the mercy of the wind? Is that how you see yourself? Are you always at the mercy of fate and your surrounding environment? Are you never responsible for your own actions or reactions to whatever presents itself at the moment?”

All good questions. So as my mind tried unsuccessfully again to shut down for the night, I asked myself exactly HOW was I retelling that story of this eventful day of my life?  That ‘HOW’ is important here, because I’m actually telling it to myself in this particular way for a deeper reason—there’s a NEED to view myself as whomever I believe myself to be: victim, perpetrator/aggressor, or rescuer/hero.

Now part of this ‘retelling’ problem might be in HOW I viewed the affecting situation as it was actually happening: Was I an active participant in the interaction—a passive one—an unwilling recipient/victim to the actions of others—an instigator myself of conflict that lead to further hostility? If I were being honest here, what part did I really play in that situation, because the world spins on day to day and interactions with others regularly come and go?  

And truthfully everybody you meet is in their own version of the world’s events happening to them on whatever level they are engaging with it; meaning that each person has their own ongoing interpretation of what is happening to them at any moment in time with or without others involved.

We all live in our own worlds, safely tucked into our own headspace; and in that headspace we are telling ourselves OUR VERSION of what is or was happening to us: We are telling OUR STORY as we understand it through whatever “perception filters” that we applied at the time.

Some filters may be bright and rosy-pink so our world view is always soft and warm and never threatening. But other ‘perception filters’ may be cloudy or darkened to allow little light to penetrate them, which means that they may obscure the clarity of the view and darken any possible brighter aspects that might have actually occurred.

Another consideration is that in the telling of our now ‘epic life saga’ to ourselves, where does one ‘story version’ end for us and the next one begin, or are they all ‘variations on the same basic theme,’ like: “I’m always the victim here—everybody is against me,” or “I’m always defending myself from everyone else—they won’t leave me be so I’ll give it right back to them,” or “I’m always having to defend those who can’t seem to defend themselves”?

Also keep in mind that reassessing and retelling our personal history is a tough recollection because it’s fraught with such factual subjectivity, lingering emotional residues, and sometimes faltering early memories of what actually occurred. In truth childhood is one of the most influential time periods of our primary psyche development, and one of the least reliable memory storehouses of our early life because we were so limited in overall situational comprehension back then.

For certain I know that my first impressions of life surrounding me as a four or five-year-old compared to my adult interpretations of the same situations and life experiences might be quite different. How could they not be?  (That is NOT accounting for barbaric, abusive, life-threatening, childhood living conditions which are hard to forget at any age.  But that was not MY personal experience.)

And even as an older child or a teenager comparing to a forty-plus-year-old interpretation of those same life events, they might not match up—meaning someone with some age behind them who has had some experience in how life actually works rather than how ideally it should work, might view a personal life crisis quite differently because even our early pleasure/pain evaluators of a personal experience can evolve as we enter life phases with ripening understandings of ourselves and the world around us.

Pertaining to our personal stories, in one sense you can say that “We tell it like we see it;” but in another sense you can also say that “We tell it like we PERCEIVE it to be,” and that perception may be tainted by our past histories and still festering emotional residues, including previous severe trauma.

Sometimes I think it’s amazing that any of us can perform well at all with everything that we are continually inputting through our multiple senses, instantly evaluating in our minds against known threats, and automatically reacting to in the most self-protecting and self-preserving manner possible.

No wonder we can’t get along as a fully-functioning society with agreed-upon group goals, when we can’t even get our stories straight.

Tilling Her Soul

(When I run across something that really needs to be shared with others, I give it respect and try to provide the viewing opportunity for anyone that the words or the image may touch. So here is the powerful proclamation from Sacred Wild Woman Medicine, with the author listed below.  If I knew the image artist, I’d list her.)


Sacred Wild Woman Medicine

(Poster based in Canada)

~The Soil of Her Soul Has Been Tilled~

She does not need anyone to help her transcend her pain. Her pain is hers to heal. She is the only one who can choose when she is ready to travel deep down inside and harness her medicine.

She doesn’t need anyone to tell her that she needs to release her past.

Her past is hers to own. Her past is a landscape that is only hers. And only she can decide the meaning she gives to all her life’s experiences.

She doesn’t need anyone to transmit wisdom to her. She is her own guru. Her own sage. Her wisdom has been gathered through the ages and her Soul knows what she needs. She has full access to the fountain of Collective Intelligence where she can quench her thirst of knowledge.

She doesn’t need anyone to tell her who she is. She just has to remember. Commune with her ancestors and ask them where she is coming from. Ask her ancestors about the struggles of her great great grandmothers. Thank them for paving the way to have the opportunity to shine her light. She stands on the shoulders of giants and this truth brings her to the values that guide her life.

She doesn’t need anyone to sort her feelings. She is not mentally ill. She is not a statistic that needs to be labeled and medicated. Instead, she tells the world that she owns her feelings and emotions. They are not to be discarded and rejected. Her feelings are guiding posts that lead her to her truth. To what needs her attention.

She doesn’t need anyone to tell her that her unhappiness and sadness can be fixed with a pill. She rejects the status quo. The mainstream understanding of what it means to be human. A feeling human. Instead, she follows the threads of her story and goes to the source of unease in her life.

She doesn’t allow herself to be defined by what they call ‘anxiety’. She knows that the main source of her feeling restless is perhaps because she allowed life to take her away from living her truth and being true to her values.

She doesn’t need to follow anyone’s vision. She has been gifted with the ability to dream. Dream big. Or not dream at all, if she doesn’t want to. When she is ready, the Universe will open the gates of desire to share her vision of the world and her Soul will guide her to her mission.

She doesn’t need anyone to plant the seed of creativity. She is her own teacher that just has to touch the seed that was planted in her at birth. All she has to do is allow it to wake up, to sprout, and to grow. She has within the rain and the sunshine the seeds needs to blossom.

She doesn’t need to pray harder. Meditate more. Speak in tongues. Or deprive herself of nourishment. What she needs is to believe that she is enough. She is worthy. She is ready. She is loved.

She doesn’t need to give her power away anymore. What she needs is to stand in her own truth. Discover her own truth. Dig deep. Ask questions and wait for the answers to come from within.

And as she inquires within, she understands that she lives inside her inner world. Yes, she walks among humankind, but in truth, she lives within the landscape of her own feelings and emotions.

She now knows that there is nothing outside of herself that can add anything to who she is. Who she really is, is already there. Who she is becoming is already there. And she is the only one that has full access to her story, her truth, her values, her mission and vision…

Her Holy Calling is waiting patiently for her to be ready… Ready to step in her own power… ready to reframe her wounds…

Ready to give a new meaning to her story of survival… her story of resilience…

Her story of how adversity forged her… her gifts, her talents, her inner treasures, her medicine she is called to offer the world…

The Soil of Her Soul has been tilled…

She is ready to LIVE HER TRUTH and LIVE IT FULLY…

She is now on a mission to ENNOBLE HUMANITY with all that she is, with her gifts and talents, with her VOICE…

And she is no longer holding back…

Words by ‘Archaeology for the Woman’s Soul’ — Corina Luna Dea

🌀Nicole — Sacred Wild Woman Medicine

— Artist~ Unknown”



What is GRACE?

We talk about it like we actually know what it is or what it involves, but how do you know GRACE when you see it in the actions of others or hear it from their whispering lips with heads bowed or gazing skyward?

I can make a simple statement aloud, “I live in God’s Grace now and always,” and instantly feel a beautiful wave of higher-frequency energy descend over me like a misty cloud washing me clean from my head down to my toes. It’s a beautiful feeling. Try it for yourself.

Just be at peace, close your eyes and take a few slow, deep breaths, and be sincerely thankful for your presence and consciousness in the here and now.

Then make the statement above with your eyes still closed, and be aware of what your body feels like when you are in that peace-filled state of mind. Do this procedure 3 or 4 times, and see if you can notice how your body feels when you say it.

Actually I thought I would do what I usually do and offer an official definition in quotes here of what GRACE means pertaining to this beautiful feeling, but there really are no adequate definitions out there in the online theological dictionaries that can describe what I feel when GRACE washes over me, so here is MY definition of GRACE:

GRACE isn’t just a particular higher frequency of energy, it is more like an atmosphere of being—a descending cloud of extreme goodness and safeness—a sense of calmness felt at the center of your body that ALL IS WELL and YOU ARE DEEPLY LOVED.

This isn’t something or someone you have to bow to or be shamed into or guilted into obtaining from a God who judges your every thought and behavior on whether they are pure enough for HIM/HER. 

GRACE isn’t something that you have to do penance for, or strip yourself bare in front of some higher determiner of your worthiness.

None of us are perfect. None of us are “without sin” to quote any preacher who ever stood before me pretending to know what he/she was speaking of while pounding on the pulpit to keep us awake.

If someone has to make you feel shameful or lesser than your true natural worth, then that person has NO idea what GRACE actually is, and likely never will.

Grace is always there for you—ALL the time. You simply have to realize it and learn to call it to you.

GRACE is true PEACE. GRACE is unquestioned LOVE—free of judgment or conditions.

You already are in GRACE if you can only recognize yourself as such and allow it to flow lovingly over you.

 ‘Being GRACE’ is a goal—a mind-state—I hope to someday achieve once I learn to get out of my own way.  

As can you.

Living with Ambiguity and Uncertainty

This is the last ‘quote-fest’ from James Hollis’s Living an Examined Life—I promise.

I think what I noticed from reading and then scrutinizing quotes from this book, is that it inspired me to do a “What was the meaning of MY LIFE?” recapitulation searching for major themes and significant affecters that helped to make me WHO and WHAT I am at present. (Whoever and whatever that actually is.)

Now this in and of itself means little to anyone but me, and any narration of “my life story” is rife with opinion and subjectivity, especially as a child recalling the most influential affecters of my early life, because how we perceived the world around us as children was raw, had little peripheral context, and involved mainly moments of when we felt loved or threatened.

So just to try and shift my perspective on the entire earliest years of my life, I tried to tell the story NOT from my own viewpoint, but from the people whose lives I most affected by my being suddenly present in their lives; and wow—what a difference that perspective shift made in how I viewed my remembered childhood. In other words, the story wasn’t so much about me, it was more about THEM and how a new baby suddenly shifted their focus and attention.

Retelling my childhood in that manner helped me to see where my most telling ‘issues’ had developed—such as ‘abandonment.’ That title above is a direct quote from Hollis that I’ll show here soon, but for an adopted child “living with ambiguity and uncertainty” was very much a part of my early life.

‘Abandonment’ is often a major affecting theme for adopted children, nothing new there; but all the tentacles branching out from that festering core wound led back to the very sources of my existence and early nurturing.

And THAT assessment from the ‘ME’ who I now am looking back on the most influential sculptors of my fresh, pure, and ready-to-mold psyche, brought a greater understanding to my lesser (but still natural) behaviors. I was sculpted in their own images—created to be who they thought I should be—a masterpiece to display before others with such pride of ownership. (“Go get your violin out now and play for your aunt and uncle.” i.e., meaning the latest captive audience in our livingroom).

I learned a bit more about ‘WHO I AM’ from that recap, than I had previously considered. And with that being said, here’s the rest of Living an Examined Life that I wanted to memorialize here for others:

“…As children we all asked the elemental questions: Who am I, who are you, why are we here, what are we to do, and whither do we go? These questions are most forgotten, pushed into the suburbs of the busy metropolis of modern life. But they rumble on in the unconscious of all of us. We look for them unconsciously in each other, in novels, in television shows, movies, and so on, or we anesthetize their loss in the thousand forms of busyness and distraction our culture provides. …

“The human animal is a creature of desire, and what it most desires is meaning, and what it most suffers is the loss of meaning. The autonomous judgment going on within each of us is a function of our psycho-spiritual reality. … (p. 116)

“…a Substantial gift of the therapeutic arrangement is to construct a holding place whereby the deconstruction of the old may take place, exigencies of the moment be attended, and watchful attendance upon that emergent be supported. …Most of the people we admire throughout history had difficult lives, but they shared a common trait—namely that they hung on until the new purpose of their life emerged for them, and they found the courage to live those new challenges.

“What was most troubling to me as a child and as a young adult—namely, the presence of ambiguity and uncertainty—is today almost comfortable. This is because I have learned that whatever makes sense today will be insufficient tomorrow when I have larger questions, larger contexts, and more consciousness to bring to the table.  I also know that wherever there is ‘certainty,’ there is either naiveté, unconsciousness, or defense against doubt. Wherever there is hysterical certainty, and there is much in our land, it is because doubt has already planted its black flag inside the soul and the ego is running away like a child. …” (p. 117)

“…In childhood, simple questions led to simple answers. Because the large questions led to ever-larger uncertainty, many of us shut down, stopped talking, stopped asking, and thereby stopped growing. But the same questions are still being asked in the unconscious: ‘Who am I? Who are you? What is this all about? Whither are we bound, and how am I going to live my life?’…[When our life summons us] Will we keep the appointment? Many, perhaps the great majority, never keep the appointment—never show up, thus lead lives of quiet desperation, suffer anesthetized souls, and have to continuously palliate distracted consciousness. Others show up because they have to. Keeping the appointment is where our lives find purpose—not in answers but in living large questions that are worthy of the soul’s magnitude

And that is why the examined life matters. (p. 118)


Insight, Courage, Endurance

How do we as individuals, survive difficult times?

I know everyone is a little bit different in how they view the world that we all share, including how they see themselves in it, and even in how they strategize how to personally make it from one day to the next with their sanity intact.

And for certain there are no easy answers to many of life’s most difficult challenges that we may face. But there are strategies that we can adopt—modes of thinking, acting, and being—that can help us make it through the rougher hours to witness the next dawn rising.

I of course, have my own opinions on the subject (and I’m pretty sure I wrote in a similar vein about this long ago), but the title above came from James Hollis’s book, Living an Examined Life:

The overall subject matter was on recovering our personal authority—you know—on “Finding Your Truth”:

“…Finding personal authority requires two things: sorting through the traffic within and living what we find with courage and consistency. In a letter in the 1950’s Jung observed that the work of being an evolved human being consists of three parts. Psychology can bring insight, but then, he insisted, come the moral qualities of the individual: courage and endurance.  So having potentially come to consciousness, to have embraced insight as to what a dilemma is really about, one then has to find the courage to live it in the real world, with all its punitive powers, and to do so over time in the face of opposition both external and internal.

“The failure to understand this triune task—insight, courage, endurance—leads many to misunderstand the dilemmas we face in life…. (p. 21)” …

“…Perhaps the biggest haunting of our lives is the over-learned fact of relative powerlessness in a world of giants and mysterious, inexplicable, and inexorable powers. What is lost in this appraisal is, of course, the contrary fact that there is a magnitude of possibility in each of us, a core strength, and abiding resilience that brings us to the summons of life with an ever-increasing capacity to take it on. …of how some people find the resilient capacity to survive abuse, the loss of cherished others, and wounds to their self-worth, while others are blown away by the same events. It appears that it is not ‘what happens to us,’ but how we internalize what happens to us, how we manage it. What breaks some souls seems to energize others with resolve and determination. …(p. 84-85)

“…While learned helplessness is one of the functional definitions of depression, we all learned helplessness in our childhood experience. For some, this learning was truly traumatic and invasive, but even those most injured by life often demonstrate a renewed capacity for growth and development, an overwhelming resilience. …Few things will outlast the truly resolved, persistent person. ..We cannot give this strength to another, but we can mirror it in ourselves and remind others, stimulate and reinforce the inherent powers granted us by the life force. We learn by going though these fears, not by running from them and thereby ratifying their preemptive powers….” (p. 85)

“…In the end, we are haunted by the past, the denied permission to live a free journey. …We are haunted by bad theology, bad psychology, and bad social models into thinking we are defined by our history, by our race, by cultural heritage. We are haunted by the unexamined lives of our ancestors and caregivers. We are haunted by the wide-spread impression that history is the future. We are haunted by the limited imaginations of our complexes. And even more, we are haunted by the small lives we live in the face of our immense possibilities. Haunting is individual, generic, cultural, and extremely hard to challenge because it so often seems bound by generations of practice, ancestral fears, and archaic defenses of privilege. “(p.  85) …

“…Virtually every client with whom I have worked over the last four decades has had to struggle mightily to find a personal path, a journey that is right for him or her….” (p. 88)…

“….Jung observed that the greatest burden the child must live is the unlived life of the parent. I suspect equally that the greatest burden our souls must bear is ‘the unlived life’. There is something in us, all of us, that knows what is right for us, which path is ours and not someone else’s, something that pushes us beyond our comfort zone into areas of growth, development, and presence in the world greater than we have lived up to this point. …a link to larger energies, that course not only through us but also through the universe. “(p. 92) …

“This theme of powerlessness shows up time and time again as the inordinate influence of early models of self and world, self and others, and it shapes our inner paradigms. …the issue of permission is critical…Many of us were raised to be nice, to fit in, not to promote ourselves, and this somehow got translated into self-abnegation, self-criticism, and self-avoidance. It is not narcissistic to become—it is a duty. But who has ever heard that in his or her childhood? Very few, if any.” (p. 110) …

“In the superficial world of most psychological practice in the Western world, we are defined by our behaviors, which we are; thought constructs, which we surely have; and biological processes, which are self-evident. But such a definition of the human being leaves out the most important thing of all: we are a meaning-seeking, meaning-creating animal, an animal that profoundly suffers the disconnect from meaning….. As Jung put it in a letter once, ‘we have fallen off the roof of the medieval cathedral into the abyss of the self.’ And he further noted that modern depth psychology; the discipline that seeks to engage the whole person, to dialog with the inner world, ‘had to be invented’ because of the mythic dissolution that threw so many unprepared millions back on their own resources. …” (p. 111-112)

“…In the face of this loss of tribal links to the mysteries, the question of permission persists with ever-increasing urgency. If we are to grow up, we have to take on the invitation to self-determination, dialogue with the inner voice, answer the summons to an authentic journey—all quite contrary to the instructions (from parents, religious institutions, and society in general) to fit in.  Growing up means, among other things, that I am accountable for my life, my choices, my consequences. …”

“…Growing up requires we accept that NO ONE out there knows what is going on, that they are as much at the mercy of their complexes and unconscious mechanisms as the least of us; and so now we must figure it out for ourselves. …” (P. 112)

“…Sooner or later a person has to understand and revisit the basics: we are not here for long; we are accountable for the life we have lived or not lived; we are summoned to choice, courage, and perseverance in living this life….. the question is asked: ‘Is this YOUR life or someone else’s, and are you responsible for it?’ … Whose permission is needed to know what you already know?… And then the ‘possible life’ opens before us, waiting only for our courage and resolution, waiting only of us to suit up and show up at last.”  (p. 113)


Witnessing the BIG Shift

As an energy worker and an empathic intuitive, I am VERY aware of our current, nearly over-powering collective ‘despair/grief’ energies—it’s hard to NOT feel them with all the death and destruction everywhere; but at the same time I am also very aware of the higher-frequency ‘cosmic’ (meaning ‘from someplace other than earth-generated’) energies pouring into our earth-plane dimension at present.  (They could be extra ‘gamma rays’ from the sun filtering through our earth’s normally protective, electromagnetic shields—I don’t know exactly what they are. They aren’t locally generated, is all I DO know; and they are more powerful and of higher-frequency than normally experienced.)

But those powerful, higher-energies coming in now are very quickly shifting the “collective’s mass energies” that we normally swim in. Meaning, it’s not a comfortable situation for us.

And our being so suddenly immersed in those higher-frequencies is ‘affecting us’ both individually and collectively—creating sudden emotional releases (individual, as well as group) and causing long-repressed memories to surface from the collective subconscious, which are rarely pleasant experiences for any of us.

Earth herself seems to be shifting beneath our feet—weather extremes point at global warming, and that means a very uncertain future for life in general everywhere. It’s not a fun time for many folks right now.

So it’s hard not to get upset or depressed over this massive change that most people on the planet are personally experiencing in some way.

But being ‘upset and depressed’ about all these changes won’t help you or help any of us. In fact ‘feeling helpless’ is what drives us nuts.  So my focus is on trying to determine what CAN help us short term and longer term, because the energies are actually just doing exactly what they are meant to do—shift the collective energies higher—and to do that, they need to loosen and release all the lower-frequency energy baggage that we’ve accumulated personally and collectively as a species and group presence since our existence.

The enormity of this collective shift might be hard to get your head around—like HOW the shift is ultimately affecting us for the better, because the present sure doesn’t feel so positive right now.

I think Lee Harris’ “September Energy Update” is a good place to start your refocus as he does explain a number of intuitive feelings I’d been experiencing lately in how to view this gigantic world mess.

Here is his video location if you are interested in seeing it: https://www.leeharrisenergy.com/sept-2021-energy-update?fbclid=IwAR2wtzzirvuqrh5OPy_2v15VzE9HH36po2D75d_ueDMSSU9iiLTKjsMxcXQ

And the “topics outline” is copied below also if you’re interested.


Themes for the month:

(Timestamps included for your easy reference in revisiting individual themes.) 

High Energy Acceleration (incoming) (02:53)

This looks like ‘fast healing, euphoric, blissful, connected moments and/or a NEW SENSE OF PRESENCE to yourself, your life and being alive right now….’

RELEASING OUR FEELINGS (rather than turning them into a story) (06:26)

Our feelings are our feelings and they need to move through rather than get stuck in a story. The story is part of it, but the emotional release is where the transformation of the story can begin.


It is normal and to be expected at times, but take note of how you are experiencing yours and for how long. Despair about collective issues and collective confusion is the feeling of DESPAIR. Feel it to release it and allow yourself to return to center again, rather than perpetuating the feeling.

Be Open to finding New Healing Modalities  (08:11)

This is a time where NEW types of healing and experience will be very helpful for the very new time we are in, no matter how practiced you are at a certain way of healing.

Only 30% are needed to create a dominant energetic shift on the planet (10:57)

Remember, this is only the beginning of a larger planetary awakening, so choose to be an amplified part of the 30%, rather than worry about those who seem to be more asleep to their hearts right now – Awakening energy doesn’t need a majority for it to become contagious.

Intuitives – the form is changing so prediction is too (13:09)

Be aware that while you will still be feeling upcoming shifts, how that will manifest in form is changing – only 30-40% of the time will the energies you ‘feel’ result in taking the forms they used to look like – the speed now means less manifests physically in that way.

The Creational Power of Words & The War of Words (17:34)

  • Low-Energy Directed Words: These are words coated in an energy designed to lower your focus or emotions and direct your attention in a certain direction. Be mindful of those.
  • The Creational Power of Words: We can use the magic of our words to create, to conjure and override the lower vibration directed words that you might be hearing, swallowing or being coated with.

Anger as a boundary (26:22)

Can you let it be a boundary or signal for you, or are you tempted to let it become a weapon? (Fire is an element we have been taught to be afraid of, yet as a spiritual element, it is part of our life-force). “


This LIFE Is Ours to Choose

After that Jungian summit a few months ago, I liked best the session by James Hollis, PhD, so I purchased a couple of his latest books: 1) Living an Examined Life: Wisdom for the Second Half of the Journey, and 2) Living Between Worlds: Finding Personal Resilience in Changing Times.

For me, reading Hollis is like reading someone who explores the very same subjects that I normally write about: “Who are we?”, “Why are we here?”, “What’s this life all about?”, “What is truth?”, “How do you find meaning in your life?” etc., etc.—all done from a truly Jungian perspective. It was eerily familiar to me, which is probably what attracted me to him; and of course I recommend his books.

There are so many quotes that I will eventually offer here, but I’ll list a few pertinent ones from the first book—Living an Examined Life, for this posting.

On developing a “discernment” process, ask yourself this: “Does this value, practice, or expectation open me to the mystery of this journey? Jung said in a letter once that LIFE is a short pause between two great mysteries. Beware of those who offer answers. They may be sincere, but their answers are not necessarily yours. Adaptive loyalty to what we have received from our environment may prove an unconscious subversion of the integrity of the soul….

“So to say blandly then, ‘The choice is yours,’ is not as simplistic as you may have thought at first. Amid the plethora of voices imposing themselves on you at any moment, which voice amid the cacophony is yours? Which voice is from the depths of your soul, and which is from the complexes and cultural templates (you’ve adopted); and how can you know the difference (between the two)?’’’

“…How can we ever choose? And yet, we make choices on a moment to moment basis, and NOT to choose is of course a choice of consequences….we serve life when we step forth and begin to take on that responsibility, that accountability, and choose a life that makes sense to us.  The choice is ours, and if we are not exercising that choice, someone else is choosing for us—if not the splintered personalities of our complexes, then the perseverating voices of our ancestors, or the noisy din of our cultural tom-toms. …

“Our life begins twice: the day we are born and the day we accept the radical existential fact of our life, for all its delimiting factors, is essentially OURS to choose.  And the moment that we open up to that invitation and step into that accountability, we take on the power of choice. …

”…we are the animal that suffers disconnect from meaning. …

…(Whatever your personal belief system) “You are still accountable for your own life. You still have to make choices on a daily basis, and you still are a person who must decide which values, which choices, are worthy of your election.” …

…”It is usually… in moments of desperation or moments when the world gets in our face, forcing us to show up, finally.  If we show up, we must make choices and stop whining. In those moments, something shifts inside. We experience our life more fully alive than it had been at any other hour. We realize that we cannot remain bound by fear, convention, or adaptation. We realize that we now have, and have always had, choices. We can say yes or no, but we cannot say we have NO choice in the matter.” …(p. 4-6).  


The Certainty of Ignorance

Had I not just read a copy of (and stifled a critical comment on) the shared-sermon spoken Sunday at my friend’s church service, I might have brushed over this little interchange below, but the “absolute certainty” expressed in the comment on the picture presented above accentuated my earlier feeling on the sermon’s ‘factual accuracy.’

“Another example of ‘the certainty of ignorance’,” echoed between my ears.

It isn’t necessarily what we ‘know’, that makes the interactions with others so difficult. The problem lies in our loudly professing what we “believe,” rather than what is factually accurate—that dooms the communication attempt from the start because everyone has their own “beliefs” and often times, those beliefs simply don’t match our own.

So this morning, I’m cruisin’ through my social media and a guy is sharing his South Africa vacation images, including this leopard pic taken at a sanctuary he was visiting; and in the comments below, one guy says, “Jaguar, not Leopard having a good rest!”, to which the original poster says, “Andy, actually Jaguars are native to Central and South America. This is a leopard.”

Obliviously, Andy then replies, “One and only one there?”

Now I wondered what made “Andy” so certain that this particular image was misidentified by the guy who actually took it?  Has “Andy” personally SEEN jaguars in South Africa? I guess we’ll never know, but what I got from the interaction between them was that there will be NO convincing Andy that whatever actual species of big cat that is above, it doesn’t match his BELIEF of what it might be—doesn’t match his CERTAINTY that he is ‘right’ in identifying the image as he does.  He believes it to be a jaguar—so therefore it MUST be.

Which brings me back to the earlier read church sermon where the preacher is expounding on the depths of Saint Paul’s faith and devotion to Christianity; and “how if we could ALL be more like Saint Paul, we’d all be BETTER Christians.”

Okay, I won’t rehash much of my earlier comments on Saint Paul (actually called Saul of Tarsus, the tax collector who watched a mob that he was a part of, stone to death Saint Stephen—yeah, the same guy who never met Jesus in person—was NEVER a follower of Jesus prior to his death—but claimed to have had a ‘blinding light’ experience with his Spirit three years AFTER his death—witnessed only by himself).

Yes, the same guy that the true disciples themselves shunned as a faker—a pretender—a mocker of their actual first-hand experiences with Jesus, the actual man who was crucified before their eyes on a cross at Calvary.  

I personally think the biggest thing Saul learned to do, was to latch onto a growing religious movement and spread his own version of Jesus’ teachings:  “…The Church has always accepted the apostle Paul, not at all as a religious philosopher, but simply and solely as a witness to Jesus. [But] If he was not a true disciple of Jesus, then the authority which he has always possessed and the influence which he has wielded have been based upon a misconception…” (www.biblestudytools.com/ )

Read some of the documented differences between Peter’s version (an actual disciple) of Gospel and Paul’s version. They are quite different. The early organized church preferred Paul’s version, and that became the standardized ‘word of God’ issued through questionable sources because the Church of that time had an agenda.

My complaint with it all is this: I want people to idealize TRUTH itself, not some fabrication created for dubious reasons!

No more fictions. No more myths and fables concocted to manipulate others or push someone else’s agenda. I don’t care if they are established institutions or global organizations, or some politician proclaiming their own ‘second comings’ whenever election season rolls around.

Either speak truth or don’t speak at all.

And Jaguar or leopard, it’s still a very big spotted cat taking a siesta on a limb.

Preparing for the Next Phase of Life

Earthschool Harmony

“Some periods of our growth are so confusing that we don’t even recognize that growth is happening. We may feel hostile or angry or weepy and hysterical, or we may feel depressed. It would never occur to us, unless we stumbled on a book or a person who explained to us, that we were in fact in the process of change, of actually becoming larger, spiritually, than we were before.

Whenever we grow, we tend to feel it, as a young seed must feel the weight and inertia of the earth as it seeks to break out of its shell on its way to becoming a plant. Often the feeling is anything but pleasant.

But what is most unpleasant is the not knowing what is happening. Those long periods when something inside ourselves seems to be waiting, holding its breath, unsure about what the next step should be, eventually become the periods we wait for, for it is in those periods that we realize that we are being prepared for the next phase of our life and that, in all probability, a new level of the personality is about to be revealed.”

~ Alice Walker

Lee Harris on “Who Are We Becoming?”

As a pretty empathic and experienced energy-worker myself, I can acknowledge how difficult the world’s current ‘collective energies’ are at present. So to avoid ‘empathic sensory overload,’ sometimes I simply shut off the non-stop news channels to better control my own thoughts—steering my mental gyrations where I want them to go—focusing instead on higher-frequency states of mind and more peaceful aspirations than the media’s ‘perpetual fear and mass destruction’ blitz.

In other words, where I put my mental focus is a choice that I consciously make.

I’m not denying that the world’s affairs seem to be one gigantic dumpster fire right now with natural and man-created disasters, but I also know how important it is to hold your own energy field strongly and purposely higher than the continually-disruptive, fear-based collective energy field, just to maintain your own health and sanity.

So today I ran across a Lee Harris short video on how to ‘reframe’ the nastier aspects of your life as the initiatory ‘gauntlet you have to run’ to gain greater awareness and expanded consciousness—or in essence how surviving through some of the worst experiences of your entire life actually helps you EVOLVE to a more advanced state of awakening and being—it’s like an ‘initiatory’ aspect of enlightenment.

Anyway, if you are interested, here is the location for the video which might help you personally reframe your current mind-state on world affairs at present: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vgLAvN6zOpo

I transcribed a few notes from it below.

“(Many in today’s world are now realizing that) their sensitivity, their empathy, their level of feeling is on the increase, and it can be very uncomfortable for people…”

Everything that’s been going on in the recent weeks and months is conspiring to HEAL you. Doesn’t mean it’s pretty right now or that you are in a pleasant part of the process, ….but when you come through one of those ‘dark night of the soul’ experiences, there is an incredible transformation occurring (within you), and we ARE DIFFERENT afterwards. So, for me, I now wouldn’t trade any of the more hellish moments of my life that at the time I would have done anything to have someone take it away, so that I didn’t have to feel it. …

So ‘Who are we becoming?’ is a consideration focus I would just like to invite you to hold in this next month or so. And more specifically:  ‘Who am I becoming?’  …We are changing internally,…and we’re changing our consciousness as individuals and as a collective—where we are in the world right now is very different than anything we have been through before. … (I’m guessing Lee means this CURRENT generation has experienced because from a historical perspective, I would argue that ‘collectively’ the 1930’s-1950, were far worse and more individually- and group-transformative than our current inane madness could ever be.)

So if you find yourself in human reaction, can you just let yourself have the reaction: the sadness, the anger, the grief, whatever you need to feel?  (Don’t wallow in it but DO acknowledge it—let yourself FEEL IT.)  Now for sure if you feel ‘stuck’ in those emotions, then find ways to help you move them or shift them or change them; and that might be (through helpful) people, or that might be finding other tools and resources to move (those stuck emotions/energies) out, but try something if you feel chronically stuck with some (powerful) emotion,…but never lose sight that we are on an evolution journey, and one of the ‘risks’ of this time is that we ‘shut down’ and we pull back and we ‘close off’ from it (to avoid feeling the intensity of the emotion). …

It’s okay if you need to shut it all out for a short while just to preserve your sanity, but don’t let yourself close down for weeks and weeks, and months and months. (Don’t isolate yourself or hide away or pretend that you aren’t experiencing/feeling the awfulness of the world’s chaos around you, because we ALL are.)”…


In my humble opinion, YES the world is changing and WE are changing right along with it; and we shouldn’t assume that anything we ever experience will stay the same in this world for any length of time because it seldom does, whether they are pleasant or unpleasant experiences. But please also recognize that as your own ‘empathic sensitivities’ increase, which they will, that sometimes what you are feeling may not be YOUR OWN energies. You could be picking up ‘the collective’s’ anxiety and fear, or ‘the collective’s’ anger vibes.

So you need to find effective ways to stop yourself from absorbing/feeling all the energy lunacy around you; which means you must learn to refocus yourself back to where you want YOUR energy frequency to be, and where you want to focus your own thoughts and emotions—because you have the ability to choose your thought focus.  

Meditation, yoga, listening to soothing music, making time for yourself, taking walks in nature, etc., are all good recentering/refocusing practices to better enhance, consolidate and protect your own energy field boundaries.

Please keep this in mind: The world is going to do whatever it is going to do, because it is undergoing a huge global energy-shift right now; and that shift will shake up political structures and entrenched institutions forcing all inhabitants of earth to reexamine, reevaluate, and rebuild their social and governing institutions to match the newer higher-frequency energy environment. It may not be an instantaneous change but it will be pivotal to how LIFE exists over the next few decades on the planet.

But what you can personally do to survive this nasty ‘reconstruction havoc’ is to let go of what you cannot control and focus instead on where you want to be during this process, and what you personally can do to help make the world around you a better place in which to live.

Lee asks “Who Are We Becoming?” then asks you to consider Who am I becoming?”  And answering THAT question is where you need to put your energies, because you are evolving into a ‘new upgraded version’ of yourself.

My advice to anyone interested in better handling this chaotic ‘collective’ uncertainty:

Let that ‘NEW YOU’ slowly emerge over time to become even stronger; filled with greater compassion and empathy toward others. 

Be also aware that this NEW YOU will be far more naturally/intuitively aware of your interconnectedness to everything and everyone. 

And during that mental/psychological evolution you will likely reach a stage of realization and energetic realignment where you will suddenly understand that the ‘NEW YOU’ has become even more amazing and powerful in ways you could never have previously imagined—ways where you are far more sensory perceptive and comprehensively astounding than those earlier versions of YOU could have ever dreamed for you to be.

That’s the effect that some of these higher-frequency energetic-shift changes are meant to do to us and FOR us. We are becoming higher-consciousness beings capable of true ‘self-realization’ with far less effort than was required before the new energies arrived.

So don’t FEAR the massive changes already underway. Just learn to step back, observe without judgment (and emotion), and allow the change to occur all around you.

Then you must learn to simply adapt yourself to better utilizing the new expanded awareness that you are being gifted/given. You will have new abilities—new ways to sense things—a new intuitive understanding of how LIFE unfolds for you, when you allow it to do so.

“Who are you becoming?” 

That’s an easy one to answer:

You are becoming a better/higher version of yourself.

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