“Summarize Yourself”

While reading a fiction book from the library, one of the book’s secondary characters, a gifted but older, acerbic author asked the main female protagonist some penetrating personal questions. She was the local academic community’s phenomenon—a young, doctoral-physic’s ‘coding’ genius who was attempting to computationally define the prime equation string for high-temperature super-conductivity. In the book the writer was depicted as aloof in general but seemed more peripherally interested in her as character study to scavenge her emotional reactions (or lack thereof) and her more prominent personality traits as creative fodder for his newest novel currently underway.

For her part having been somewhat socially repressed to date, she had found him intellectually and philosophically stimulating to discuss more pithy subjects, until he cavalierly stated something a bit condescending to her along the lines of “I don’t know you well, so summarize yourself for me.”

While she had previously courted his erudite attention for validation, she now recognized the shallowness of his interest in her as intrusive and parasitically-motivated, so she walked out of the scene without responding to him; but what he said to her stuck in my head: “… summarize yourself for me.”

I thought, ‘How would I summarize myself;…or  even describe who AM I in summary just to myself, NOT to someone else?’

Think about it a bit. Out of the blue someone says to you: “Summarize yourself.”  What would you say? (Besides telling them where to put it and walking off also, which I would totally do.)

In truth ‘summarizing ourselves’ is a complex task for anyone because we are seldom who we think we are, and less sure how others actually see us if we did describe ourselves a certain way. Do you really KNOW yourself well enough to even attempt a summary? This task made me contemplate my actual self-awareness.

How about if you simply desired to ‘summarize yourself’ to you alone? Can you do that?

  • Are you WHAT you do?
  • Are you WHAT you wish to be?
  • Are you the sum total of all you have experienced and felt to date—a running chronology of all your successes, failures, attempts, passes, from childhood onwards and how each of them affected you for better or for worse?
  • Can you trace your ‘awareness’ evolvement?
  • Are you now living your highest aspirations for purpose and significance to the world around you, or are you primarily passing time waiting for the Great Unknown to acknowledge you?
  • Are you a ‘good’ person by your own standards, or a ‘not so good’ one? What makes the difference? What’s the defining criteria for each? Can you be both some of one and some of the other?
  • Is this consideration part of that Doing/Being conundrum?  Are you what you ‘DO’ in life, or are you simply as you ‘BE’—a soul incarnated?

After pondering this ‘self-summary’ challenge for awhile, I finally just let my mind quiet until it began to drift away—slowly riding the oceanic waves of consciousness.  What I then heard clearly between my ears was, “I am a seeker.” 

It’s from the Hermann Hesse quote,

“I have been and still am a ‘seeker,’ but I have ceased to question the stars and books; I have begun to listen to the teachings my blood whispers to me.”

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I agree with Hesse. That’s a pretty close summary of WHO I am also:  “I am a seeker” of truth and knowledge. I am a ‘collector’ of other’s wisdom and experiences. I am an incarnate ‘sensor’ for Higher Consciousness in the NOW as I know it.

I am, as Alan Watts claimed, but ‘a wave in the universal ocean’: 

“You are a function of what the whole universe is doing in the same way that a wave is a function of what the whole ocean is doing.” – Alan Watts.

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So what’s your self-summary?

Transcendence

“…In religious experience transcendence is a state of being that has overcome the limitations of physical existence and by some definitions has also become independent of it. This is typically manifested in prayer, séance, meditation, psychedelics and paranormal ‘visions’….” (Wiki)

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When we are born into this world many say that we are born as ‘blank slates’ with no agenda and no knowledge/training to do even the simplest of tasks short of screaming for food/attention and soiling our diapers.

Others say we are born with a fully-formed agenda programmed into our being (or our energy fields) that plays out day by day until we achieve our pre-ordained objectives.

And still others claim we are only holographic avatars of some higher intention acting out roles to achieve undecipherable higher goals defined by an unseen/un-see-able game controller’s agenda.

Now how do I encompass all of those agenda possibilities in explaining transcendence from this questionably-purposed physical experience within a couple pages of text?

In one sense transcendence is what I have been striving for all of my adult life, so this concept is extremely important to me in a visceral way; and in another sense I find it hard to accurately describe what it means to achieve transcendence and even more importantly, describe HOW to do so.

The left-brain’s rational/logical mind has limitations in that ‘describing’ regard, because these are aspirations primarily of the right brain—the intuition—the inner knowing w/o words—the empathic connection of simply BEING HERE NOW and feeling your way into every situation by how resonant and harmonious it feels to do so—the higher-connection directions from our high-frequency Higher Self that put us into this physicality for training and consciousness advancement. (Like the parental “Go play in the yard children—but not in the street,” sort of directive.)

Transcendence is the reconnection into true God-Source to the point of nearly losing our individuality we fight so hard to maintain.  It represents accessing the All-ness, the One-ness, the Zero-point expression of Being where personal distinctions dissolve into a single harmonious and homogenous whole expressed as the Highest possible light-frequency we are capable of sustaining within our limited human capacities.

To hold such high frequencies of pure Divine Light we must be acclimated into doing so or we may blow our neurological circuits; so if transcendence, or ‘direct God-Source connection’ is desired, it is preferable to first practice modes or mediums of meditation, prayer, or other more esoteric energy enhancement practices. (I learned energy-body work through Usui REIKI, Karuna REIKI, plus I meditated.) And since I’m NOT a drug fan of any kind, I don’t recommend psychedelics or mind-altering herbs, etc, like Ayahuasca for mind-expansion.

And even though I’ve been through Shamanic training where some teachers might suggest Ayahuasca or peyote to visit the ‘alternate realities’ or other dimensions of non-physical existence available to ‘space travelers’, I don’t recommend them, because if you open your consciousness too wide too fast you may lose all ability to return to this ‘version’ of reality—whatever that might be for you. I’ve been ‘out too far’ without drugs and it was extremely hard to return fully to my body—took a long time.

But because of my own experiences I was able to help one of my more adventurous REIKI students who allowed a complete stranger at a psychic fair to send her far out into the ethers without a guideline back. Initially the rocket-blast high might have been desirable and extraordinary to her, but when the realization of how untethered she was to THIS world eventually sank in, she was soon calling for help to come back down from it.

Another problem with randomly shooting your consciousness into the unknown is that if you spread your energy-self too thin out in the ethers you might not be able to protect your personal energy field from at-large parasitic entities who are hunting for easy prey, suddenly run across you out there ‘blissing about’ by yourself, and decide that you look pretty darn good for their ‘energy dinner’ on-the-fly. Seriously, it happens.

That kind of risk is just not worth it. Trust me on this one.

So if you do desire to transcend your physical limitations in this reality, and frankly, who doesn’t, then do it with reputable guidance and extra spirit protection during your exploration. If you want to test the waters of space exploration and bliss consciousness, then I recommend  you do it through a reliable teacher.  Check out Alicia Power of SoulMentoring.com. She offers many free videos to sample her energy vibe. (Just to note: I’m not affiliated with her in any way—I just like to share available resources. She’s a good one.)

You can check her out and listen to the numerous videos currently available on Youtube @ https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCO6QtUarRPB-r78YKVgQBsQ or go to “Deeper Insight”@ https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLEB4E151BFDF9A043 for samples.

Depth Plunge in Minutiae

As a jig-saw puzzle fanatic I can obsess for hours over a thousand random puzzle pieces spread across a card-table waiting for sense to be made from it all, because to me it’s a challenge and perhaps a metaphor for LIFE.

What makes ‘the sense’ part you might ask in a puzzle or in LIFE?

For the card-table puzzle, the ‘sense’ is matching knobs and holes into slots that fit them until you complete the entire picture printed atop those individual puzzle pieces giving it a ‘united wholeness composed of 1000 individual parts.’

With LIFE, ‘sense-making’ is less simple or easily defined.

But the funny thing about this particular multi-piece puzzle I was so engrossed in, is that yesterday I was down to the last two pieces from puzzle completion (that’s 998 pieces done) and I had two open slots ready for them to fit into, but to my amazement and annoyance, they didn’t fit. Not even close—different knobs and shapes completely from the two slots available. 

How can this be?

I mean this isn’t a life-altering situation here, but how can these be the last two pieces and not fit the two available slots for them? I’ve put this puzzle together half a dozen times before—they ALL fit together perfectly. This just CAN’T happen.

But unfortunately it DID happen. So did I slip unaware into an alternate universe and my puzzle stayed in the previous one? What’s going on here?

After closer inspection, it turns out that one small ‘look-alike’ piece in the frame was 3 places to the left of where it should have resided, so that all the other pieces shifted to the right and misaligned the hole slots above them. One single piece out of place in the 4-piece string caused the slot shape differences atop them. So when I changed the twin-like frame pieces to their correct locations, the two remaining puzzle pieces fit perfectly into the new slots now available. Just like magic.  Mental melt-down averted.

Now in one sense this is really NO big deal and hardly worth even mentioning here, except I also consider these puzzles as a metaphor for LIFE; so how does this likewise apply to LIFE?  

The presumed metaphor: One stinking piece out of place in the framework of your life can throw everything else out of alignment and cause turmoil and confusion in your daily affairs until you resolve the offending problem and realign your dissonant parts.  

One piece of your life that looks almost exactly like the correct piece you need for your life to function competently and completely may be slightly out of sync with the rest, and because of that, all your other life parts in turn fail to engage as they should, and it disrupts your entire life’s flow and rhythm.  

Questions that may arise along these ‘life misalignment’ lines might be:

  • Are you at peace with yourself? Are you doing what you want to be doing with your life?
  • Are you content with your job or your friends or even with yourself?
  • Do you feel like you are missing some key component in your life that would smooth out all the other problems, but you don’t know what that missing piece might be?
  • Are you satisfied with your efforts to be the person you wish to be?
  • Are you happy to face down each day’s challenges knowing that you are truly giving it your best effort every step of the way?

In truth I must admit that some part of me upon seeing the two remaining pieces not matching the slots available for puzzle completion wanted to say, “Heck with it. There is something out of place here somewhere but it’s just not worth the effort to try to find the problem. I can just toss it all back in the box knowing that the correct amount of pieces are here for the next time I try to put it together, even if they don’t currently match up.”

But that stubborn, obsessive, competitive part of me said ‘NO. Find the problem. Fix it. Do it RIGHT or don’t do it at all.’

That’s what LIFE is about as well.  Find the problems in your life (first admit them to yourself) and fix them. Live your life with integrity and purpose by knowing who you are as a person.

Don’t ever give up on yourself, and don’t ever let yourself off too easily when you know better. Don’t get lazy. Be determined to do the right thing in your life—to BE the right person—the BEST person you can be.

You can go the distance. You can get the job done right. You got this!

Don’t toss your life’s puzzle because you are two slots off completion. See it through. Reassess, realign, and try it again until you get it all to fit together in harmony.

It’s all a test to see what you are made of when your life goes astray. Every day is an opportunity to FIND YOUR TRUTH in every situation that you encounter because LIFE is set up that way—offering many opportunities, both large and small, to test your worth.

To some folks LIFE always comes easily, and all their pieces fit neatly into place with the first try.  For the rest of us, we may have to work at it a bit more; but if we don’t give up, we will find the right slot to fit into and then our entire LIFE picture can be complete.

Because in the end that’s what we ALL hope to achieve for our lives—a beautiful, complete picture full of a thousand unified pieces that eventually make us whole.

A Walking Bundle of Frequencies

“We are slowed-down sound and light waves, a walking bundle of frequencies tuned into the cosmos. We are souls dressed up in sacred biochemical garments and our bodies are the instruments through which our souls play their music.”                  

~ Albert Einstein     Earthschool Harmony

Don’t Assume

Who is running the show here? 

Ever ask yourself that question?

Wish I could answer it for you, but not certain that I really know myself.

I think the most important thing in this quizzical scenario is don’t assume that you know exactly what is happening to you, around you, or within you, because we have no actual idea of who we are, what we are, or WHY we are even in existence at this time, although we often wished that we did know.

It’s such a perverse truth to fathom: the world is NOT as it often seems to be—nor are we.

When people label themselves as one ‘belief’ over other possibilities I wonder WHY they do so. How does it benefit them to wear a specific LABEL in that fashion? Is it for inclusion or exclusion?

Every aspect of LIFE itself is an interpretation that each of us make. Every situation we experience is gauged by our particular perspective on its benefit or detriment to our lives. Every interaction we have with others is not based solely on who they say they are, but on how they treat us.

Why would we assume that one interpretation of LIFE is better than all others? Why would we believe that one perspective is the only one through which to view our lives?  And why would we NOT want to be treated with the same respect and dignity that we hold for all others?

Or is that the problem?

Are we holding all others in the same respect and dignity that we ourselves wish to be held in? Interesting question, isn’t it?

Don’t assume others aren’t exactly like yourself at their core being—full of needs and wants and higher aspirations for a more peaceful and loving life. You might be pleasantly surprised how similar you actually are if you took the time to find out.

Reality Challenged

Yesterday for some reason my head was all over the place and suddenly I was recalling a visual scene ‘memory’ from a TV show or a movie, so I watched it vividly replay in my mind; then I stopped and thought, “No, wait…that wasn’t a show or a movie that I saw that in, it was from a scenario in a fiction book I read Tuesday.”

That was when I fully realized how alive my mind was making the stories that were created only in black and white on a sheet of paper before me. I wasn’t just reading about the characters and their interacting situations in these tall tales—I was actively visualizing them happening as I read through the pages; so a day or more later I didn’t just recall ‘words’ phrased a certain way by the author—I saw the actors and complete scenes that those words had suggested as they appeared in my mind while I was reading the book.  

When an author can so completely immerse you in their imagery and phrasing that you witness the imaginary scene as you read it, THAT is the skill of a great writer.

That is also a good reason to question what we think we remember about the lives we actually do live.

Psychologists and therapists have long known that their clients have their own ‘interpretations’ of what has happened to them in their lives—especially when those clients were children with limited comprehension and assessment abilities.

But as adults, we also are making ‘reality’ interpretations every day of our lives; and we base those interpretations on many criteria, but particularly we base them on how safe or how threatened we felt when we experienced the situation remembered.  

That’s why trauma has such a paralyzing affect on people. It can taint every other future experience with the same inner terror felt when the initial trauma occurred. And when we begin to question our reality for REAL-ness, we begin to question ourselves for knowing what REAL actually is. Not a good state of mind in which to stew.

As someone who has some pretty broad personal interpretations of what constitutes REALITY, I’m not a good choice to define it a specific way for others; but a good counselor or therapist can help you in that regard if you are having difficulties interpreting what is happening in your life. Even my psychologist friend from that group shaman apprenticeship of years ago used to say that “everyone experiences their own reality” and she only tries to help her clients find their true version of it.

So don’t be too hard on yourself if you flake out once in awhile and think you’ve been to the moon and back and are standing here now with a rock in your hand to show it.

You should see my rock collection.

 The Intelligent Ocean of Consciousness

“The laws of nature are but the mathematical thoughts of God.”   – Euclid

Nassim Haramein

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Pretty sure I’m referring to Akasha again but in a different way here.

This illusive concept is hard to get your head around: that this ocean of space and seeming non-substance in which we exist is itself alive, just as the Earth herself is alive and conscious of all thoughts and activities of those existing upon her surface or those dependent upon her atmospheres and climates; and furthermore, that we (Akasha, Earth, all living creatures) are all interconnected with each other through frequencies and unseen matrices and meridians of energy, meaning that what affects one aspect of the interconnected entirety affects ALL other participants to some degree because we are intimately linked and intentionally bound together as a total package.

An even harder concept to consider is that everything within this ocean of consciousness is intentionally ‘designed’/created using some specialty programming that is so advanced we can only catch fleeting, behind-the-scenes ‘whiffs’ that it even exists because it is nearly beyond our limited comprehension levels to fathom it.

So while I’m contemplating that engineered ‘Divine Intention’ possibility and reaching for a good analogy to better explain it, I ran across this quote:

“Atheism cannot hold water until it acknowledges that physics has arrived at a new set of suppositions.

Chief among them is that the pre-created state is outside spacetime, and whatever is happening there, is acausal. The logic here is that whatever the pre-created state might be (superstrings, multiverse, dark matter and energy), it doesn’t obey the rules of cause-and-effect, and it exists outside the physical universe.

Therefore, the old-fashioned bedrock of atheism, which makes ‘science’ the enemy of religion (or more crudely, ‘reason’ as the enemy of superstition) has collapsed.“ —  Deepak Chopra 

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Interesting.

Like Dad

I was reminiscing about what my mother and grandmother taught me (Wrapping the Garden), but during the process failed to give my dad his due. If I was behaviorally similar to anyone—including my cliff-jumper Aries personality, it was to him—a fellow Aries.  My mother jokingly swore I was his actual birth-child because we were so similar in attitude and demeanor.

From him I learned that nothing is impossible if you dive in head-first and just get after it; and of course he thought that I could do whatever he could do. And since he thought he could do just about anything that he put his mind to doing, I believed that I could do it also—and still do.

My dad was a workhorse. Working two jobs or sixteen-hour work days was not unusual from the time I joined the family until he eventually passed due to pancreatic cancer in his eighties. If he wasn’t driving or fixing his grain trucks, or part-time farming, or even playing men’s Dad’s Club basketball in his ‘50’s, he was showing me how to catch and throw a softball or a basketball and he attended my softball games—even as an assistant coach for a couple years.

In the fix-it shop, as a young kid I was his third-arm: his go-fer—his tool hander—his shingle cutter—his tractor chauffeur for grain and hay wagons—his yard mow-er—his seed-corn sack toter—his “hold this steady”er for welding large items—his “whatever I need when I’m under this car, hand it to me” person.

In other words, I was the family’s only child who tried to meet everyone’s needs—both mom’s and dad’s.

But from hanging with dad who tended to view me as “his assistant” rather than as a little girl you had to be so careful with, I learned carpentry, mechanics, roofing, plumbing (sort of), farming, and how to bounce around in his big trucks when he went on grain runs around the state.

He opened a ‘mechanical repair and gas station’ when I was away at college; and then I became his ‘holidays and summer help’ to pump gas, sell snacks and write up the work orders for all fix-it clients—even replaced a few spark plugs and did oil changes for him during that time. He and I worked Thanksgivings and Christmases, even New Year’s Day to give the rest of his staff the day off, so I never had to wonder what I’d be doing on those holidays away from school. I’d be working with dad.

When I graduated, I told him I’d work full-time for him for two years to repay him for helping me pay for college so I didn’t have to rack up big debt. Then I became his Assistant Manager of the business and handled the books also as mom’s health was deteriorating by then.

He was basically a good-natured guy—tried to help his lower-income clients, and always treated everyone fairly and with integrity.  We argued occasionally as two strong-willed Aries working together will, but overall we worked well together as long as I remembered who was the ultimate boss in the matter; but even then, we were more like co-partners in the mechanical/gas-station endeavor than as the ‘protective father/delicate daughter’.  He valued my opinion on business matters, even if he didn’t take it.

So for ALL of us, when we contemplate WHO we are as individuals, there are many factors for us to consider: some are inherited, some are learned from our family environments, and some we may have initiated ourselves from a deep-seated longing to inquire and discover more about the world around us—as we were always trying to determine HOW we fit into that strange and somewhat perplexing mass of humanity that we inhabit, along with HOW we fit into Nature’s plan for supporting our continued existence here.

Without a doubt, life isn’t easy, nor is it without complications and complexities when family units are concerned.

Just keep this in mind: We are WHO we are for many reasons. But we can BE whoever we wish to BE primarily through our personal determination to be that person.

So BE determined.

It’s Been Strange

Sometimes I wonder what makes this time—this particular age of humanity—any different than other periods.  With our own limited-longevity perspectives, it is hard to compare other more distant time periods to our current age.  We only have historical inscribed-stone artifacts or scrolls or ancient tomes to review for that comparison, and since we weren’t around during those specific time periods to personally experience them, it’s hard to truly glean the significance of each era’s actual advancements.

Attention spans are so short these days. The electronic age has ‘instant-ized’ every aspect of our information dispersal; and what was once considered unthinkable, like world-wide face-to-face communication either on your desktop or in the palm of your hand, has become so blasé that we take our “knowing” what’s currently happening on the other side of the world for granted.  There is no time lag between two communicators across thousands of miles of ocean. It’s astounding.

But when we compare humanity’s existence/advancements to all the phases and ages of Earth’s evolvement, we humans are microscopic in that spiral of time. Hominids, bi-pedal human-shaped mammals appeared only 1.5 million years ago, with recognizable ‘humanity’ itself listed as near 200,000 years old.

But the earliest evidence of some type of human community or to a form of human civilization can be traced to only 50,000 years ago. And the larger recognized civilizations like the Egyptians, Chinese, Meso and South Americans, Africans, Indus, Greek and Mesopotamians are only around 6,000 years ago.

The ages of humankind as we know it are based on the tools used to eke out existence in a harsh world geared toward survival of the strongest and smartest among living creatures during each epoch period. So to that end we recognize the advancing ages of human development, such as: Stone Age, Bronze Age, Iron Age, Industrial Age, the current Electronics/Information Age; and we are about to enter the Artificial Intelligence (AI) Age.

What all of these Ages of Humanity have in common is that they aren’t so much a set time period specific as they are collective-consciousness advancement defined. As human consciousness increases, so does the level of faster technical advancement; and as the world population expands, so does the interactivity and sharing of those advancements which leads to ever-faster species’ technical  skills advancement.

Even in my lifetime, (moving from radio) with television to electronics to space exploration to lunar landing to International Space Station to computers to cell phones to heart transplants to joint replacements to DNA genetic modifications to robotic surgeries to Artificial Intelligence to Facetime conferencing with people on the other side of the world; that’s a lot of change in a few decades of existence.  

My dad used to talk about his Ford Model A’s engine that he, a young-buck then, took apart in the morning and had ready to run by afternoon for a date.  My current vehicle is so computerized, it tells me when the air pressure is low on a single tire, and the engine automatically shifts from running on 8 cylinders to 4 cylinders as needed depending on the decreased engine load to save gasoline.  No way could my dad were he alive, or most folks that I know, work on a modern car engine without computer diagnostics and specialized equipment. My vehicle uses synthetic oil—not even a real petroleum product, and electric vehicles are fast replacing gas-burners with every passing year.

All of this advancement in the course of a lifetime is mind-boggling.

So when I lament that “It’s been strange,” trying to gain some perspective on the speed of human consciousness progression in today’s world, I start to wonder what a year from now will be like—or five years—or a decade from this date; and then I wonder more so how the human species will adapt and adjust to its increasing dependence on Artificial Intelligence until AI decides that humans are irrelevant to its most efficient operation and are simply too out-dated to maintain them.

Seriously folks, there may not be another ‘human age’ after that. Pleasant thought isn’t it?

Responding to an ‘Initiation’ Crisis

“You never know what you are made of until you must face your greatest fears head-on.” 

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Different modalities or belief systems often talk about “initiations” as being the point where a young person is suddenly confronted by the sometimes cruel or grueling complexity of life itself. Many ‘coming of age’ stories talk about an adolescent’s passage into adulthood through some character-defining struggle they must face, either through making a difficult decision for themselves, or they must survive a dangerous and possibly life-threatening situation now presented to them.

In the practice of shamanism, most ‘initiations’ are like that. They are called ‘tests of Spirit’.  You often don’t even realize that you are in an initiation until, as I mentioned in a previous post called “Relearning“, whatever you always did in your life that once worked so well for you, now doesn’t; and whatever you try to ‘fix it’ with, falls flat—or makes the situation worse.

Spirit-initiations are meant to be a ‘shift point’ for your life where you are stopped in your tracks and forced to change your perspective, your attitude, and your life direction. That is their basic purpose—a shake up to your internal make-up. It can be like getting hit in the face with a tire iron. (And sometimes just as painful.)  You stop, shake your head, look around, and say, “OMG! What just happened to my life?”

And true Spirit-initiations are never to be taken lightly. You learn quickly that you are not in charge of what is happening. So pay attention to every aspect of the experience and above all else—watch your attitude. In true Spirit-initiations, if you don’t confront them with respect and a willingness to learn the error of your previous ways, you may get slapped down even harder, because in shamanism everything is alive and everything is connected to everything else. Consciousness is that vast ocean in which you swim; and there are lots of different forms of conscious awareness in that ocean—some you can’t even begin to imagine; but when all those other ‘awarenesses’ are suddenly redirected toward you, there is no place for you to hide to escape their penetrating focus. When Spirit has you in Its sights, you are the sole target of Its intentions.

That’s the basics of a shaman initiation—it’s a test from Spirit to see what you are made of when your life suddenly goes to hell and you can’t figure out WHY or HOW to change the situation for the better. Because for some unknown to you reason, it has suddenly become your new Spirit-assigned “task” to face down whatever demons, both real and imagined, that are blocking your life’s forward progression; and you don’t have a choice in the matter. Seriously, initiations can literally be life-threatening at their worst.

To shamans, an ‘initiation’ is the insurmountable obstacle appearing in your daily passage—the unexpected crisis point that strains your emotional/psychological resiliency—the seemingly unavoidable mine field you must cross to merely progress further along your normal life’s path.

From my own shamanic experiences I can easily say that INITIATIONS are truly awful tests of your determination, your stamina and endurance, and your mental resiliency. Sometimes the physical characteristics of a Spirit test are the least challenging aspect you will face; while the psychological/emotional/mental toughness parts are the hardest to withstand. Those experiences can shatter what you once considered REALITY; and that in itself can be destabilizing.

The worst parts of my own major shaman-initiation lasted years; and even now—fifteen years later, I am still dealing with residues of the horrible experience. (Hard-heads get hard lessons.) So never underestimate the severity or longevity of a true Spirit-initiation. You simply have to ride it out without crumbling to pieces under the pressure. You must learn how to SURVIVE onslaughts from the UNKNOWN, and make them your learning experiences, not your breaking point.

Joseph Campbell described this process of initiation in religious mythology as “The Hero’s Journey” (from WIKI):

“In narratology and comparative mythology, the hero’s journey, or the monomyth, is the common template of stories that involve a hero who goes on an adventure, is victorious in a decisive crisis, and comes home changed or transformed.”

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That’s actually the whole point of ‘initiations’: They are meant to transform your life. Who you have evolved into because of surviving the initiation, is far from who you were prior to it. You were once soft dough to be molded and shaped in whatever form; and now after surviving the oven’s blast furnace, you are crusty bread that matches the last form that held you.

While it’s pretty hard to think of a crisis as an ‘opportunity’ to discover the most intimate details about who you are and why you exist, that is what a crisis provides—an initiation into self-discovery of what it takes for you to survive for as long as you need to do it.

It’s a true test of your character and your determination to endure the worst of the worst, and to learn humility during the process. It’s a way to face down your worst fears—which is probably why it exists.

Evolution in Action

As an energy empath I can tell you that these solar/cosmic energies coming in now (primarily through August, but also starting out September) are off-the-charts powerful. They are buzzy, frizzly, and electrifying.  As they flood throughout my energy field I’m lucky to get 2-3 hours of sleep a night because my body is just sizzling with energy.

And yes, because of the excess energies in your body you can get a lot of work done etc., but you also can’t shut down your mind at night from the most annoying revisiting memories of your life long past.

As aggravating as that might be for restful sleep, I also know that it is necessary to clear out the old charged energy-packets of emotions from childhood, adolescence, and early adulthood to free our neurological pathways for higher frequency transmissions to come—in other words, we’re making space available for holding ever-higher frequencies of consciousness than we could hold prior to the space clearing.

I know also that when I start feeling intense increases of energy-at-large that it’s likely I’m not the only one feeling it, so I was interested to see what energy intuitive Lee Harris had to say about the monthly energies we are experiencing.  You can hear it for yourself below.

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Here is the link:  https://www.leeharrisenergy.com/sept-2023-eu

“SEPTEMBER ENERGY UPDATE from Lee Harris

Themes for the month:

(Timestamps included for your easy reference in revisiting individual themes)   

  • Breakthroughs and Bouncebacks. (01:35)
  • Fracturing the old reality becomes personal – reinventing YOU from the inside.(04:07)
  • Confusion is part of the speed of change. (9:00)
  • Are you Re-patterning OR in a Holding Pattern? (10:21)
  • Ancient Sensory Wisdom returning – experienced through the psychic senses and the body. (12:33)
  • Clearly seeing the vibrations and emotions in the narratives we are being given on global and personal schools. (17:21)
  • Can you ALLOW it to be Earth School? (20:45)”
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