The Pains of Initiation

So far I’m not sure how to frame this year 2020—to attempt to put it into some comprehensible context for proper assessment. I mean what perspective can you use to wrap your arms around something this immensely prickly and caustic?

Assessing 2020 is like hugging a 30-foot tall saguaro cactus and hoping that you don’t get skewered with barbed spines.

Every morning when I awaken, I wonder “What will this day bring?” Which of course means multiple questions of: “What challenges, what blessings will this day provide?”; as well as “What inner resourcefulness will this day require of me?”

And then I, like everyone else in the world, get up and go about whatever I need to do to face all of those possibilities because that’s what we do—we just keep on keepin’ on—doing whatever we need to do to keep moving forward day by day, no matter what we may actually face.

That’s what you do in an “initiation”—shamanic or otherwise—you just endure the situation as best you can and keep moving forward until you reach the end of the test. If LIFE smacks you down, you get back up; and you keep getting back up no matter how many times it knocks you down because that is your only option to survive the ordeal.

If you give up the fight, you become last week’s road kill.  Period.  That’s how bad true shamanic initiations can be.

So this morning I see Alberto addressed the issue per his own perspective, which is as a collective shamanic initiation, and in many ways I do agree with him.

Here is his take on 2020.

“This is a familiar theme in the legends of shamanic initiation, where you face death, overcome loss, and respond to your calling in a new and greater way, until it becomes truth.”  Alberto Villoldo, PhD, in A Shaman’s Miraculous Tools for Healing

“2020 Jul 14 — A Higher Calling    by Dr. Alberto Villoldo

The effects of racism, oppression, illness, climate disaster and possible extinction seem to swirl around us as we travel together on this blue-green orb hurling through deep space.  We have awakened to a world both familiar and unfamiliar in the intensity of all that has happened in 2020, and find that we are in a great collective grieving process. We are challenged to find how to be ever more resilient in responding to our calling for creating a new world, one that has the potential to break free of the nightmare of the past.  …

…As shamans we experience and feel the pain and sorrow, the joys and fears, the highs and lows and yet remain the resilient ones, the wisdom keepers, the luminous warriors. As shamans we know that the health and wellness of each one of us depends upon the health of the entire planet. This includes all people of all races and ethnic backgrounds, all plants and animals and all of life.  How can we continue to be resilient even as it seems that events are reaching critical mass, that everyone around us seems to be filled with disillusionment, depression, discouragement, and anger?  

These are the times we go back to our roots, to remembering we belong to the earth and the earth is beseeching us to raise our consciousness so that we can create a better world for us and for our children. We also belong to the universe, so we visit the realms of our ancestors and our children’s children and dream big dreams of peace and harmony, freedom and independence for all beings, and invite those around us who are lost in despair to join us in sacred dreams

Standing in the middle of the darkness we stay focused and in the moment so that we can be the calm center of the storm, so that we stay connected to spirit and vision. We share the light we have cultivated with our spiritual practices. We honor natural wonders such as rivers, lakes, mountains and in so doing reinvigorate the energy of the land.  We renew the energy of our communities by creating ceremonies to remind us that life will go on. …

We are the ones we have been waiting for: the ones who can replace anger with healing and despair with hope.  The ones who sit in the light and ask – what can I do today to create community? How can I reach out to someone outside my own circle? How can I connect with joy? And say YES as we respond to our calling in a new and greater way.”


Published by Rebecca A. Holdorf

Rebecca A. Holdorf, has a Masters in English, and is a certified hypnotist specializing in Past-Life Exploration and Spirit World Exploration. She is also a Usui and Karuna REIKI Master Teacher presently located near Davenport, Iowa. Author of five books, she also conducts workshops and training in Self-empowerment, True-self Actualization and REIKI. Her company is Foundations of Light, LLC, web address is . Contact her at .

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